The Introduction
It’s 1:37 am and I can’t sleep. I’m not sure if it’s from the tropical heat I’m dealing with or these minor stomach pains I’m feeling (I think my period is arriving), but I’m definitely tired, and still can’t fall asleep. After rinsing off my mouth guard, I randomly had the urge to research teeth grinding. After a recent dentist visit, I was informed that I grind my teeth at night, and I would need to wear a mouth guard to protect my teeth. I have no idea when the teeth grinding began, but according to my research, teeth grinding, also known as bruxism, can be caused by stress and anxiety. Of course. The Virgo in me knew it had something to do with stress and anxiety. The Virgo in me, also decided to google search at one something in the morning, just to confirm. It’s beginning to feel like stress and anxiety are just part of my nature. So, I need a solution.
After a few weeks of feeling depressed, my “something like a boyfriend” nagging me to open up about my issues, me deciding to open up by writing about it in my notes, and my seestah (sister) convincing me to write a blog, I decided to write a blog. I’m not sure if it’s for myself or to help anyone else out there, but it’s better than staring at my wall or ceiling when I’m too despondent to do anything else. Making music has helped, but I work with producers that take 3 to 5 business days to respond to a simple message, which further extends my stress and anxiety, thus, blogging is my solution at the moment.
A little bit about me; I’m 25 years old. I’m from Brooklyn, NY. I’m in debt. I’m broke. I’m unemployed. I’m practically homeless. I have a bachelor’s degree in film production. And I am working towards becoming a legendary singer/ actress/ writer/ filmmaker/ philanthropist. Emphasis on legendary. I’m hoping my experiences shed light on many others that are dealing with similar obstacles. No one is alone on their path to success. We’re all growing as we’re reaching. Obtaining our goals would be meaningless without an evolution within ourselves, along the way. It’s not going to be easy. It currently is not for me. But regardless of all my nagging, crying, and complaining, I will keep going. As long as we’re loving what we’re doing, we have to enjoy this journey.
This is just an introduction to more chaos, more going off on a tangent, more complaining from another person with first world problems, and hopefully some words of encouragement. Enjoy.